An Out-Pouring of Brain Matter

I haven't really stopped being busy since September. College brings work and friends and troubles and Big Decisions(tm) and a severe lack of sleep and so I have been doing so very much. It doesn't help much arriving as late as I do even if I do leaver straight away. Of course, I also need to keep family stuff, even if I really would rather make it just stop for a while and so that just means doing more things, getting more headaches and not shouting at Simon to just stop talking nonsense and actually listen to me for once!

I've also recently realised that, for all I've been spending a lot of time with people recently, so much of what what we discuss is just pointless. Which is a not always a bad thing, but I certainly need more conversations on Descartes vs. Satre and what the attraction is for straight men to lesbians and straight women to slash and what Cameron really wants in the contexts of conservative and, indeed, liberal ideology. And more of course. I have been finding myself really annoying, but I think it's mainly just not enough intellignet discourse.

Lessons have some of this, but I'm stuck with quite a lot of people who would rather just throw stuff about and mean no one else keeps a chance to actually engage in their lessons, leaving me bored out my mind. I occasionally with I didn't pick somethings up to easily. On Monday Dan (one of my Philosophy teachers) wrote 'property dualism' and, figured out what it was, because to me it was enitrely obvious. Meanwhile the entire 90 minute lesson was spent explaining the basics to the class because even the people who are normally on the ball didn't get it. It's not really about me being smarter, I just work in a different way and vtend to be quite good at breaking down vdown language in my head, despite verbally defining words being the bane of my existance.

So I should try to get more of that in. and more sleep. And do my work. And be in all my lessons. And finish by bloody personal statement. And keep up with family and friends. And all the other stuff. Hopefully, I'll be fine and at least I theoretically have a long summer as a reward for doing this once I have.

At least I have half term to help my brain reform.